He broke up with me. Again.

[Bobbi]

Hi
I read the article on beliefs that make it difficult to move on after a breakup. It all sounds very familiar. I appreciate especially the part where it is explained that my BPD partners experience of our break up and of our relationships is completely different than was mine. I have a long standing depression/anxiety diagnosis. I manage one day at a time. This breakup has dredged up a lot of old hurts from previous breakups and indeed from my own old issues... .childhood stuff. My depression has been particularly bad today. It doesn't help that I work as a nurse, have completed two backshifts this week(which really makes me feel way more emotional anyways). Fortunately I am off work today. Still I am feeling very alone. Learning about what is happening, learning about myself is helpful. Maybe this post will help too. I don't know. I am glad I found this site.  I thank anyone who has read my post... .there are alot of posts. Its overwhelming to  me right now the amount of pain expressed on this site... .it seems so much. And yet obviously the site is popular.
Take care.

[Mutt]

Hi Bobbi,



I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time. Depression is tough. Your post struck a chord with me because I have a long history with depression and anxiety too. I completely understand how it can be difficult to talk about your stuff when you're feeling a lot of pain, it helps to talk, we're here to listen, i'm looking forward to reading more of your posts. Hang in there

[allienoah]

Bobbi-it hurts so much when this sort of thing happens over and over. The feelings can be overwhelming at times, especially when you are tired and stressed. One day at a time is all you can do. I find myself during breakups-yes I am allowing myself to be recycled over and over-to take it one hour at a time. That gives me confidence for the next hour. I too have anxiety/depression issues that I honestly believe were intensified by my r/s w bfwBPD and that is a hard pill to swallow.