A promise to myself

[UnforgivenII]

Dear UnforgivenII,

I promise you to never suffer anymore for someone who treated you like dirt. I promise you to never believe anymore to a liar, to someone who lied from day 1. Defensive mechanism? From what? From someeone who loved him and cared for him? I promise you to never care anymore for someeone who cheated on you from day one.Let him be with all his "friends". He deserves them and they deserve him. They deserve his lies and cheating, his speaking bad of them behind their back. His new "love" will soon realize what love means for him. It means to talk with tens of other women behind her back. It means to yell at her, to withold sex, to mock her and to laugh at her.
I promise you to wait for the right person. In the meantime, there is me to take care of you. There is God. Do you remember, Unforgiven, when you tried to read him 1st Corinthians 13 and he looked  bored and fed up and mocked you for your faith? Well, faith is what is holding you and it is what will see you grow with flying colours. I promise to take care of you, Unforgiven. Only people whose actions match their words will be allowed near you from now on.
You lost nothing. Someone who really cared for you would never treat you like this. He showed you very well what he felt for you-nothing. Absolutely nothing.  I will give him exactly the same. I owe to you happiness, Unforgiven. In the last days you experienced what true and sincere love is.

Do not settle for anything less.

   

[happendtome]

Their "friends". Sometimes when i look at their friends its like they all are mocking me. They (friends) will give them all the excuses and when i have given them facts they they think i have made those things up. Even though that these have been hard facts, documented. Some people can play Jekyll and Hyde so well. It makes me angry, but i know i need to detach. I cant let negative people ruin my life, my emotional mindset.