i listened to a whole lot of eminem, particularly the Recovery album. really self empowering stuff, and i consciously avoided sad songs.
some years after Detaching he released this as a bonus track on a new album that i sure could have used at the time, but i found very poignant. interestingly, its about the only song in his catalog without profanity
choruses cut for brevity.
I can feel the heat rising
Everything is on fire
Today is a painful reminder of why
It can only get brighter
The further you put it behind ya
But right now I'm on the inside
Lookin out, cause
I'm standing in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Setting fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light
Yesterday was the tornado warning, today is like the morning after
Your world is torn in half, you wake in its wake to start the mourning process
Rebuilding and you're still a work in progress
Today is a whole new chapter, it's like an enormous ass
thunderstorm has passed ya
You weathered it and poked its eye out with the thorn bush that you
Used to smell the roses, stopped to inhale can't even tell your nose is stuffed
So focused on the brightside, then you floor the gas pedal
And hit the corner faster, more assertive
Never looking back, may hit the curb
But everyday is a new learning curve, as you steer through life
Sometimes you might not wanna swerve
But you have to to avert a disaster, lucky no permanent damage
Cause they hurt you so bad, it's like they murdered your ass
And threw dirt on your casket, but you returned from the ashes
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline
And while you're burning the past, standing at inferno and chant
So familiarize with what having to swallow this pill is like
It happens all the time, they take your heart and steal your life
And it's as though you feel you've died because you've been killed inside
But yet you're still alive which means you will survive
Although today you may weep because you're weak and
Everything seems so bleak and hopeless
The light that you're seeking, it begins to seep in
That's the only thing keepin' you from leapin' off the motherfreaking deep end
And I'm pulling for you to push through this feeling
And with a little time that should do the healin'
And by tomorrow you may even feel so good that you're willing
To forgive them even after all that ____ you been put through
This feeling of resilience is building and the flames are burning
Quick as fire wood through this building, you're sealed in
But you're fireproof flame retardant you withstood it
And as you climb up to the roof you're just chillin' and you look down
Cause you're so over them you could put the heel of your foot through the ceilin'
As time passes, things change everyday
But wounds, wounds heal
But scars still remaining the same
But tomorrow today's goin' down in flames
Throw the match set the past ablaze
So feel the fire beneath your feet
As you barely even perspire from the heat
Exhale deep and breathe a sigh of relief
And as you say goodbye to the grief
It's like watching the walls melt in your prison cell
But you've extinguished this living hell
Still a little piece of you dies, you scream
