Anywhere I could find a collection of '2010's posts?

[PretentiousBread]

Clicking on her profile doesn't give me access, and using the Bing search bar is very imprecise. Anyone ever compile a collection of her great insights?

[Turkish]

Members need to make ten posts to search each other's profiles.  Why don't you start by sharing your story. What's going on? 

[once removed]

i second Turkish. why not share more about what brings you to the family?

when did the breakup happen?

[PretentiousBread]

Thanks for your interest. I feel like it'd be full of self importance to rehash the whole tale, and to be honest it pales into insignificance compared to some of the other stories I've read on this forum.

Nonetheless, I'm an INFP, I'm very reluctant to enter relationships, so when I do, I really am fully committed to that, not in a needy way, but just that I don't see it as a casual thing - if someone is my girlfriend it's because I've determined she might be a partner for the rest of my life.

So you can imagine how disappointed I was when this girl who I could properly connect with effortlessly for hours on end, who was the most beautiful person I'd ever been with, who I had the most amazing sex with, who had this endearing shy/vulnerability to her, who seemed so aligned with my core values like integrity, compassion and authenticity, turned out to be this flippant, fraudulent imitation of what I though I was in love with, who shared none of these values and instead would ruthlessly and coldly discard me at the start of our date in the middle of a restaurant, the tables next to us, their jaws just dropped.

I've read a tonne on BPD (and she def had some NPD overlap), spoken to two therapists who've a background in BPD who agreed she fits the criteria. I don't know what to say at this point really. I'm trying to move on, but I feel like there's so much emotionally to digest here that any attempts at moving on without first fully understanding what has happened, will not be successful.

Any questions you wanna ask or anything you're curious about in particular, feel free.

I've drawn up a list of odd behaviours and moments of the relationship which seem indicative of BPD. I'm pretty tired right now, but will post it tomorrow.

Thank you for listening.

[once removed]

Nonetheless, I'm an INFP, if someone is my girlfriend it's because I've determined she might be a partner for the rest of my life.

i am too, so youre in good company. nice to meetcha 

I'm trying to move on, but I feel like there's so much emotionally to digest here that any attempts at moving on without first fully understanding what has happened, will not be successful.

i can understand that. when i arrived here, it had been a few years since my breakup. i had some more learning and processing to do, but i wasnt really sure where to start. it can be good to just get a ball rolling in whatever direction, whatevers on your mind at the time. its been a little over 8 years now for me, and i never know what will get me going...its still therapeutic sometimes.

ruthlessly and coldly discard me at the start of our date in the middle of a restaurant, the tables next to us, their jaws just dropped.

is this the breakup that youre referring to? what happened?