Trying to accept it

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So 15 days ago my bpd ex broke up with me, over something small. We were meant to have a talk about progressing our relationship for the 4th time and she never came to speak for the 4th time (she always spoke about future plans). I called and left a voicemail explaining i dont know why she treats me poorly etc.

Next day she breaks up with me and blocked me on everything. (She did this twice before but only for a couple of hours, 1 time leaving me in a hotel and doing it)..

Anyway I'm finding some days hard, I miss her, we met on a game and she doesnt come on since splitting up with me. Literally erased me from all reminders and earth.

She did it slowly I guess, after 8 days she deleted the photos she sent me, 11 days the photos of us, 13 days removed mutual friends and uploaded selfies to facebook..

As far as im aware there isnt anyone else (she was single for 4 years before me) and shes still single now..

Trying to go NC but every now and then i peak at her social media but know not to message..

[Cenewyg]

So 15 days ago my bpd ex broke up with me, over something small. We were meant to have a talk about progressing our relationship for the 4th time and she never came to speak for the 4th time (she always spoke about future plans). I called and left a voicemail explaining i dont know why she treats me poorly etc.

Next day she breaks up with me and blocked me on everything. (She did this twice before but only for a couple of hours, 1 time leaving me in a hotel and doing it)..

Anyway I'm finding some days hard, I miss her, we met on a game and she doesnt come on since splitting up with me. Literally erased me from all reminders and earth.

She did it slowly I guess, after 8 days she deleted the photos she sent me, 11 days the photos of us, 13 days removed mutual friends and uploaded selfies to facebook..

As far as im aware there isnt anyone else (she was single for 4 years before me) and shes still single now..

Trying to go NC but every now and then i peak at her social media but know not to message..

[gizmocasci]

Sorry to hear about your breakup. I know this is hard, but don't check her social media. She's a drug, and by checking it, you're only getting your fix. It's doing more harm than good. If you get the urge, just find something else to do.

Best of luck

r

[Lucky Jim]

Hey Cenewyg, Your feelings are normal and to be expected under the circumstances.  Suggest you allow your feelings, process them and let them go.  I doubt anything you did or didn't do would have changed the outcome.  It's hard, no doubt, yet you are off the roller coaster, which is a big step forward.  Suggest you treat yourself well and be patient.

LuckyJim