College aged daughter is 100% negative with me

[Lola B]

My DD19 is impossibly cruel and tears me to shreds when she has pain, which has been all the time for years.

I’ve made a regrettable mess of my own life thinking about being tied to her. I love her, and I’m sickened by her.

She is suffering from severe depression and blames me for all her pain. She credits herself for all good things even though I’ve been behind the scenes making much of it happen.

She has lost nearly all her friends and hates school after school that she transfers to. She wants credit for keeping things going. I bite my tongue telling her she needs to move out.

She has turned myself inside out.

I can’t wait for this to be over. I am not going to harm myself or her. I am at the end of my rope.

Our objective is to better understand the struggles our child faces and to learn the skills to improve our relationship and provide a supportive environment and also improve on our own emotional responses, attitudes and effectiveness as a family leaders

[Blueskyday]

Ohh lola,
How familiar your situation is.
No one knows who hasn't lived this nightmare.

My daughter is 30 now and I have lost the last 20 years to this and its still going on.

 Its exhausting and heart breaking and clouds every part of life.

What age was she when it started?

Im glad you found the forum

[Lola B]

She was diagnosed around 14. I chased a diagnosis to help me understand her since preschool.

I’ll pray for you.