Hi. I want to join Faith in welcoming you to the board though I a,m sorry for the rough circumstances.
We can offer a great deal of support here for your situation as Faith mentioned we have tools and strategies that can make coping easier for you. Self care is a huge part of being a parent to someone with BPD though often a parents more immediate concern is for their child or addressing the difficult behaviors. The thing is, self care has to come first so you are at your best.
Are you getting therapy? I ask not because I think you are wrong in some way but rather it is a great way to get support and talk with someone who can help you strategize and implement the tools we talk about here. What do you think?
Can you give us some more detail about your living situation? Is your daughter in your home? What other support do you have? When was the last time you felt like "lying down to die"? Are you safe in terms of those thoughts and from the violence your daughter engages in?
I apologize for all of the questions. It just helps us help you if we have more info. Of course, answer what you can and feel comfortable and leave the rest.
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