So I kinda shied away from this site because I don’t know if it makes me better or worse. And that statement is not fair. Of course it makes me better right now because I’m reaching out.. again! So my apologies for sounding condescending.
Maybe thought I was coming out of this funk I’m in. I’m treading above the surface.
So.
After two calls to lawyer about status of divorce with just no reply I get letter from lawyer that whole Shabang has to start from scratch because of erroneous docket number.
That means I go from possible “default” to having to serve her again.. shoot me I am to worried about the mess if I do it myself.
-2/ now paying commingle health and car insurance fully.
And the really really bpd thing is I have been doing this all for two months. We only email about details and then last week she actually THANKED me and said she trusted my decisions. Well that put up a big red flag on this sunken ship.
So Tuesday she actually called me and I picked up with “hey what’s up”. She went on a rage tirade about oh hell I don’t know then hung up. 14 seconds(I looked). 14 seconds.
Then she sent email that she was coming to house to get
PLEASE READ like the crib we got from her parents and a tool box from her deceased father and a couple other things I really have no problem with that. But she ends with that “she will be bring help and doesn’t want to see or speak with me”.
It’s just so typical. And I did not respond and I’m sure she won’t show up. She got arrested here for assault so she may be ill but she don’t like the cuffs.
I was treading but this stuff just shuts me down mentally and more.
I don’t want her dead and gone. I loved her and can’t hate but don’t deserve this. Don’t want to kill myself because that’s selfish and I do have a grown daughter and pets to look after. And I would never put another in the position of cleaning up my remains after suicide.
So I’m hoping a jet engine falls off a air force jet and crushes me.
(And makes it back safely(the plane) so I can be dead and the govment can pay for the cleanup.