I believe it’s too little, too late. The part that feels a little off is that I’ve been the one predominantly fighting for “us”...until now. For years I tried to fix. Now, recognizing it will never truly change and knowing it’s not how I want to live, is how I feel.
I’m still scared. What if I lose my job? How does covid impact his support requirements? Will I be able to make my kids okay? How do I buy a house with a new job? Where do I get support? How do I protect my kids? Myself? And many more.
I hear you on this. That’s how I feel...
What keeps you from moving ahead with divorce stolencrumbs?
The suicide threats and attempts. I'm not so good at handling those.
I also was the one trying to fix things for years. I don't know if this will happen with your H, but when I stopped trying to fix things, my wife started trying to "fix" things. It definitely made it harder to stick with what I felt was best for me. It made it harder to maintain boundaries. And it definitely made me feel like the jerk. And that's one of the reasons I emphasized thinking through what you want if that happens. It may be a tactic. It may be genuine. I don't really know. What I can know is what I want to do.
