At my wits end

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

 I know I need to leave my on again off again relationship of 13 years because it is extremely harmful to my wellbeing. But I know she doesn't do well when I'm not here.

[Winthrop]

 I know I need to leave my on again off again relationship of 13 years because it is extremely harmful to my wellbeing. But I know she doesn't do well when I'm not here.

[IntoTheWind]

A very difficult lesson to learn is that you don't need to know how the story ends. Especially when you truly care about the wellbeing of a person and feel responsible for them.

I had the opportunity for a really perfect ending with my ex, and we could've left it at that and I could've put it to bed, I wrote a note, said a lot of things I wanted to say, and we parted ways. Then we recycled and made it hell for eachother and ended on bad terms permanently.

If you do choose to end it, do it in a way that you can feel truly comfortable with, express your feelings for them and say everything you need to, because after that, the only true way to get out is by going No Contact and that is possibly one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do.