Mir geht's besser, danke. Thanks for asking Cromwell. After these r*** flashbacks it's like I have to crawl my way back to sanity from the edge. It's awful.
How are you?
Awful shows how much you have the ability to give love, to be deeply hurt but then to heal and learn.
There is more to life to look forward to, since leaving her I've had many happy moments, and these are more recall because they are more recent. But yes it was awful and many days were horrific. It got eaiser though and its explained by self focus and self preservation. The relationship is over, its me that gets priority and help and kindness and gifts and so on. It was difficult at first but ive got used to it.
Some of the best advice i got was to accept the feelings but not to suspend life and make this more attention than it already received. You are sane, depression is normal after these relationships and can make feeling a loss of sanity, a false signal but a known symptom.
Another suggestion was give myself a year to feel better and this was almost exactly correct. From a neuroscientist. It was accurate, the brain goes through physiological changes from being in such high stimulation situations. It needed time to learn that the danger was gone and could now chill out and still have fun but the non hurtful type. I suppose im curious now to learn some sort of musical instrument simply because I've ran out of sports, and want to give some different brain circuits a bit of a new challenge. Always busy poppy, always on the go. Have a good day and see you later. Thanks!
