Anyway, the thing is that I feel terribly lonely. I hate the evening. I spend the whole day working and in the evening I go somewhere to sit and watch people passing by. I have a couple of friends where I live, but I have the feeling that I need to be with people 24/7 to not die from loneliness! How can I ease the pain of loneliness? How did you deal with that? Shall I start dating again?
I'd really appreciate any support! Thanks!
The loneliness is so tough. Especially because it feels as though anyone who hasn't been through the grinder of a relationship like this doesn't really understand what you're going through. I found that at first I tried to make plans with anyone I could, and especially people who would be willing to talk. Once I maxed out on that (friends can only handle some much wallowing), I tried to just make any plan I could so that I wouldn't be alone. I joined a local running group, which was a good way to do something healthy and meet new people. It was tough to socialize with strangers, but it helped. I also started making plans for a week or more down the road, so that I always had things to look forward to. Eventually, though, I became less afraid to spend nights alone, and even started to enjoy them, despite the rumination. None of this is easy, but finding the right balance of social time and alone time made the situation more tolerable for me. I'm almost two months out and starting to feel better day to day, with rough patches, and feeling more optimistic about the future. Good luck!
