Hi WilliamPretzel, nice to meet you.
The questions you're asking about yourself are good ones. Everyone here is on a journey of trying to be healthier and cope with themselves -- in addition to relational stressors.
This site is for family members and relationship partners of BPD sufferers. This is where we learn to support our loved ones, and where we learn to take care of ourselves. Because of this, we do not have the resources to help individuals with PDs or autism spectrum challenges, whether diagnosed or undiagnosed. That being said, I encourage you to check out a few other sites that will likely be a better fit for you as an individual.
you can try the NAMI site and click on the "your journey" link:
https://www.nami.org/Homeand there's also the Psychology Today site:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us (you can try the "Get Help" link)
Either or both of those groups will likely be more tailored to your needs and experiences.
We wish you all the best as you find the right fit for you.
Sincerely;
kells76 & the team