Checked his fb. Can you help with interpretation?

[imstillhere89]

Hi all,

I couldn't resist and checked his fb from a fake account (my official account is blocked).
When we have been together and my fb was deactivated he didn't use his fb much. He wasn't really posting and he didn't have profile picture.
Few days ago he added profile picture (old selfie he did when we first met and been in online contact only). He also added a song called "You ain't my homie". Above the song he added "no mercy".

Here is the lyrics:
OverviewListenLyricsArtists
You ain't my homie
You ain't my homie
You ain't my homie no
You ain't my homie no
You ain't my homie
I ain't your homie
No, we ain't homie that all
No, we ain't homie that all
What happened to you
What you fell up again,
We use to kick you off
But now enough you're not the same
And you changed,
I think that I would f*ck with that bi*ch
Can't believe you leave it and you come ask me that s*it
But you did
And now I feel the s*it's getting ugly
My heart is hungry
F*ck you what you still feeling jump
You need to slow us down,
But only the facts
Put your pipe down and shake the monkey f*ck you back
You need to chop it
With the bull*hit that you get in
My nans stays in line and when it's 50 keep it darling
Shhhh
No telephone is never for you fail until my kindness over witness
I see you trying to keep the sock in the doll over he said she secret
And that's a weird s*it that ain't you steelo
You went from ten to zero have my total f*cking loyalty
Pesci and De Nirom but f*ck it,
Now it's just a thing in the past if we meet up in the mirror
F*ck the Tonka with blacks cuz that's your ass
I use the phony trick
And never in your mother f*cking life call me you on me bitch cuz...
You ain't my homie
You ain't my homie
You ain't my homie no
You ain't my homie no
You ain't my homie
I ain't you homie
No we ain't homie that all
No we ain't homie that all
You walk around with your head up, but You went down
When you work out with you should trade s*it You f*cking clowns
Play the part if you want you but we know the real
You lock it up before you'd ever think of a push to steal
You ain't a ride a little wet so quit acting hard
And all the ink that you got blasted on the East George harbors
Fake get your steel cuz your s*it through
Now I'm putting on the theater when I see you
I come before the neck cuz I'm head bust
What you used to be You ain't no more mutherfu*k
I quit to say what I'm all about
You piece of s*it you keep the south about your f*cking mouth
I wicked lick my finger moving up and down the page
And my heart is steady beat is full of f*cking rage
I'm in the cage right and lyrics bi*ch you know what's up
I'm doing what I'm a real kid that we don't give a f*ck
So all you think it's wanna be gangsters now you casket blow me
So Why you Bobby your head remember bi*ch you're ain't my own
You ain't my homie
You ain't my homie
You ain't my homie no
You ain't my homie no
You ain't my homie
I ain't your homie
No we ain't homie that all
No we ain't homie that all
Here I go once again I was getting worse
Literally I'm causing trauma to your ears burst
No pulling punches okay that's my gear down
I'm pulling covers like a punch on target s*it now
And baby face you would ask race to the southern structure
Now tree you know better than a f*cking buster
Claim to be a rider but you not dog
You run around like you were killing
You ain't our dough
You just a goofy in a tank full of big fishes
Trying to hide out but I see you walk the lower snitches
Dress up like bi*ches in knocking with your straw hats
Scattered that hat at the cage trying to dodge this rap
And now you dug another dummy laying in the cup
And you got deal with them see you're f*cking with them guns
You f*cking pumpkin if I'm wrong they come out to play
Came up with the jacket that they get you bi*ches says you gay
If I fell a m*therPLEASE READer, you ain't from my city
Where their dancers come to play young, we show no pity
From the rooftop to the payment yeah, the city blocks
Off on the west coast we gaming and we bust on cops
I don't associate with who do well at f*cking bi*ches
Or even walk the light with all the f*cking snitches
Live him in snitches when I'm catch him now you maggots blow me
Let's get it straight for the record bi*ch you're ain't my homie"

I don't understand some of this slang. I don't think he understands it for 100% either. But still I am pretty sure he posted that to me knowing I am watching...especially "no mercy". I feel like he feels like a victim and I was the one who hurt him. He posted that for public not friends only. What do you think?

[Tupla Sport]

Seems rather immature either way. Does have an air of "eff you" though. Unless they post drivel like this on the regular it seems like it is aimed at you.

BPD people in a breakup often paint you black. Even if there's no smear campaign in earnest they might be dropping... less than subtle hints like that. I went to my ex's TikTok and she was calling herself a survivor of narcissist abuse there. Her closest friends don't see that because she knows I told them what happened.

[imstillhere89]

He is 32 years old but he did show his immaturity on a daily basis. I wonder if he posted this just so I know how he feels about me or he is craving reaction from me.
What is annoying is the fact that he is the one that started the fight and then ended things blaming me for everything...and making himself look like a victim. The only reason why he could be angry at me is that I didn't stop him from leaving (like I used to before). He invested a lot in our r/s..much more than me (especially in the end)...that can be another reason why he is so angry. He invested a lot but he couldn't respect me on a basic level. Why should I be the one to blame...

[imstillhere89]

 I went to my ex's TikTok and she was calling herself a survivor of narcissist abuse there. Her closest friends don't see that because she knows I told them what happened.


Maybe she hoped you will contact her trying to defence yourself?
Everytime my ex screwed up he loved to blame me for it or smtg else ..because it worked. I started to explain myself and his behaviour has been swept under the carpet...

[Tupla Sport]

I went to my ex's TikTok and she was calling herself a survivor of narcissist abuse there. Her closest friends don't see that because she knows I told them what happened.


Maybe she hoped you will contact her trying to defence yourself?
Everytime my ex screwed up he loved to blame me for it or smtg else ..because it worked. I started to explain myself and his behaviour has been swept under the carpet...

I don't think so. She had blocked my profile on TikTok. She blocked me everywhere.

It did put a funny spin to her breakup narrative. When she told me she wanted to break up she acted all nonchalant about it. Even sort of carefree. "Oh, I've been meaning to contact you about it." This was after a measly two weeks of NC. She had the air of almost forgetting to inform me that the hugely stressful, abusive and heavy relationship was over because "we're simply not happy together". She even had the gall to ask me to meet her live to deliver the news. Again, having an air of not knowing at all where I was with the breakup. "Oh yeah, I don't want to restart a relationship with *you*, mind you I've been seeing your best friend, bye." That's obviously not what she said but it was insane how out of it she was. She had probably discarded me from her mind completely and had no idea that I would have gone absolutely mad if we saw each other.

That's just more levels of insane when I think about it now. The last time we saw each other I just about chased her out of my apartment. Even told her I wanted to physically hurt her later. Not as a threat but to make her see that we are in deep piss in the relationship.

We then proceeded to mill about the breakup until deciding to take a break. After two weeks of NC, I had to ask her what is going on. She then almost absent-mindedly suggested we see "at the Chinese place today if that's okay with you".

I immediately knew what was going on and got super mad at her for breaking up with me because I was and am still intensely trauma bonded to her. I called her a cancer and got hysterical in general. She then blocked me for a week.

Like, what in the absolute PLEASE READ did she think was going to happen if we did meet live? The same person

1. almost literally ran away from a number of our dates this year because I said something mildly stressful to her (and she couldn't regulate by terrorizing me because we did not live together anymore, instead she had to leave "defeated" and in flight response)
2. wanted to see and dump me live like dropping off a book to a friend after forcing me to accept a vague break which she promptly used to date my best friend, the narrative indeed being "I've been talking to a lot of people and the conversations always summed up to us not being happy together".
3. blocked me for a WEEK for getting nasty on WA when we should have been negotiating about her getting her stuff out from my apartment with absolutely zero contingency plan. Like she had tons of stuff she would later beg me to let her come pick up at her own pace at my place, and all she could do was BLOCK me. If I did not contact her, I'm not entirely convinced she would have contacted me after the week.
4. went on TiKTok calling me a narcissist