Lol, I'm not raging and thank you for the welcome. Came to this site as soon as I found out. For some odd reason I get the feeling everything will be okay and we will talk again at some point.
I wish I didn't care so much. Thank you for the reply.
We're all going through it. Work on your inner game. Work on yourself and everything else will fall in place. Thats what I am doing now. MUST build that self esteem in order to "not care". In my case it helps to get bombarded with egregious behavior everyday. I guess you become desensitized to being discarded, recycled, replaced, etc. Mine went from needing a new bf to needing space to maybe getting back together in the span of a few days. These are crazy relationships. Dont expect the expected unless you expect the unexpectes to come t the WORST possible time.