The part I can't get over is... . is there really someone who is sane and who can be as romantic and connected to me (in his normal moments)? I've never met someone as romantic as him before, and I don't know if I will. I felt like he was my soulmate. I know they have a way of doing that... . whirling you around in this fairytale romance, but is that just the disorder?
Yes and yes!
Ask yourself some questions. Would your true soulmate drop you like a hot potato at the drop of a dime? If you think so, why do you feel like you deserve this type of treatment? What is it you truly want from your "soulmate"? This isn't a rhetorical question, you might want to write out a list of the characteristics you require and the ones that are deal breakers. Does your bf truly have all the requirements and none of the deal breakers?
With the billions of people alive on this world, logic says there must be many people who could truly be your "soulmate". There are many honest, caring, romantic, loving, very REAL people out there.
And finally a hug for you because you deserve one.