1 - Her life now and my replacement both seem like a complete upgrade from when she was with me. My replacement is more handsome, slimmer, younger, wealthier, more successful, and better in bed. Their relationship has advanced more in a year than ours did in five. They're already living together on the other side of the country from her hometown, and I wouldn't be surprised if they got married soon.
Let me guess she told you that? You shouldn't believe it, she just pretends that way thats how BPD people are. They always pretend like everything is cool but in reality it really isn't. It's just an act.
Even if they got married, what kind of marriage would that be. You know how she is, and everything she did to you she would to her "husband". Do you really want to have a wife like that? Just let them, maybe they seem happy now but one day it will be even worse for them. And at that day you'll have found a much better partner compared to your ex.
I feel emasculated, inferior, discarded, and worthless. I don't miss the fights we used to get into and the nights I spent on the phone with her until dawn, on suicide watch because she felt so terrible. But I do miss the idolization, even if it wasn't 'real' - it felt real at the time and the memories remain good no matter how much I read about her condition. Knowing that someone else is experiencing that idolization hurts. Just as painful is knowing - thanks to her early attempts at post-breakup contact which I foolishly allowed - that he's a lot better in bed than I was. I played the caretaker role in the relationship and she played a 'princess' role - we were both each other's first sexual partner. I absolutely abhor the idea of my replacement laying his hands on her. I know that's stupid and possibly even creepy. I'm trying to get better and become less jealous, and let go of this concept of her purity or whatever.
You really shouldn't because everything about her new relationship is just fake. She's just playing games with you thats why she said he's better in bed. Don't let her get you, she's saying that just to hurt you. Just let her go, mark my words karma will get her.
The relationship wasn't perfect, but I would never have given up on it.
Once you meet a nice girl you'll realize how evil your ex is, you're going to realize how bad your relationship was with this girl. If they talk bad about you, just let them. One day that guy will get played and dumped too, then he'll see her true identity. My ex did the same with her ex, and I knew she would do the same about me. So I really never cared about what she said. I know all the people around her know how bad and evil she is, so what did I had to lose? Totally nothing.
I guess those are the three main things that are bringing me down right now - my replacement is made of solid gold, I'm now garbage in her eyes, and my attempts to start a new long-term relationship are all fizzling out. I was wondering if anyone had any advice or could at least relate with me. Thanks for reading, I know it got long despite my best efforts.
Just ban her completely from your life, if you have any presents or gifts that she gave you just burn them or throw them away. Delete her from Facebook, delete her number, add her e-mail to a ban list. Just let her have fun with her new boyfriend. She's just going to play him, everything she says about him is a possible lie. Because when she dumps him she's going to say the same about him.
My ex did the same, and to be honest I never liked her friends and I didn't had any contact with them. I had my own buddies she never knew, I kept them on a distance from her. So even if she talks bad about me why should I even care?
You really shouldn't miss her, if you still think about her that means she still controls you. Don't let her win. Forget everything about her and move on. I know it sounds pretty hard but it's not hard at all, you need to have a strong will. Couple weeks ago I did think about my ex and I loved her. Couple weeks later I totally forgot about her, I even hate her so much I hope I'll never see her again in my entire life.
I started a couple new hobbies, I have met so many people and made new friends. There is no room for her in my mind, she isn't even worth it. I'm almost everyday busy with activities. You really should do the same as I did, start a new hobby, go hang around with your friends, talk with people, meet new people. You'll be so happy that you're going to forget her.
In my opinion you really should NOT love her anymore, just think what she did to you. Every time when you want her back think how evil she is, I knew mine did play a lot with my feelings so what happened I started to hate her. That hate motivated me to improve my life, have fun and enjoy everything without her. Most BPD people will never have a stable relationship. At the time when you're going to get married with the love of your life your ex will be the same, she's still going from relationship to relationship. Probably never have kids, even if she did marry her marriage would be a disaster. So she's the loser and you. Karma always get them.
My ex is the same, I bet she's with an another guy now telling him how much I sucked and how bad I am. To be honest I'm so happy we broke up. I have met an another girl and she is way better compared to my ex. I even thanked my ex for treating me badly because of that I met this girl. I knew this would be a slap in her face because she was the queen of jealousy. This girl really made me realize that my exBPD is a big loser, she's never going to achieve something positive in her life.
You're still recovering from your relationship so don't start a new one. You need to forget totally about her then you can start a new relationship. Get your self busy, try to stay busy everyday it will make you forget about her. It really works, I'm not better than you so if I can do it everybody can do it. Improve yourself and forget about her.