one year on from suicide attempt...

[Family Court Strategies: When Your Partner Has BPD OR NPD Traits.]

Over a year on since you nearly died at your own hand, and almost a year since you nearly destroyed me,

You made me feel like I was the one you had always waited for, I felt the same.

Now you are with me all of the time in my head and in my heart -

Every time I see a dark blue Toyota Yaris

Whenever I am cleaning

If I hear the word ‘vintage’

H***** is a common name and my heart leaps whenever I hear it

Every time I see a blonde giggling child, like L*** your grand daughter

Whenever Scotland is mentioned

I have stored away everything you gave or wrote to me but I can still see it in my mind

I have sold my boat as the memories of you on board were so painful, I have another but the memories linger like a bad smell

I am learning to live again without you in real life but with you in my soul

The pain has stopped, but the yearning remains

I think it will always be with me as will you

I wish you well but hope you never do to another man what you did to me

[Calm Waters]

Over a year on since you nearly died at your own hand, and almost a year since you nearly destroyed me,

You made me feel like I was the one you had always waited for, I felt the same.

Now you are with me all of the time in my head and in my heart -

Every time I see a dark blue Toyota Yaris

Whenever I am cleaning

If I hear the word ‘vintage’

H***** is a common name and my heart leaps whenever I hear it

Every time I see a blonde giggling child, like L*** your grand daughter

Whenever Scotland is mentioned

I have stored away everything you gave or wrote to me but I can still see it in my mind

I have sold my boat as the memories of you on board were so painful, I have another but the memories linger like a bad smell

I am learning to live again without you in real life but with you in my soul

The pain has stopped, but the yearning remains

I think it will always be with me as will you

I wish you well but hope you never do to another man what you did to me

[Lady31]

Oh goodness... .I feel an empty heartache when reading this.  :'(