Beyond Confused. What does she want?

[zenwexler]

So I posted in the intro section. I left out a few things so I wanted to add them here, not sure how to edit posts. My original post is titled "Since Help" I meant "sincere" obviously. Sop any help with my situation will be greatly appreciated.

I just wanted to add that before we broke up for good she wrote me this letter saying how much I mean to her and how amazing of a guy I am to stand by her, and that I always am the one to make things right when we fight. She also said that she thinks it's amazing that I would drive an hour and a half twice a week to see her. She would rarely drive to my place. She then went on to say though that I need to be sweeter and nicer, which is insane because her letter pretty much said how amazing I am! She's the one that needed to be nicer and sweeter to me!

She abused me so much, blaming me for every problem. I was never good enough.I used to beg her to just be nice to me. I told her that if she would just be sweet and kind to me, have sex with me (jokingly)  I would literally do anything for her. I don't ask for much.

Thank you everyone for all of your help. If I don't get a lot of feedback then I'll probably just post my intro in this section or the leaving one.