No caller ID

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I have now received two phone calls in the past 12 hours from 'no caller ID'

I don't recall getting many of these calls ever previously. I get the standard telemkt call, but they are not hidden.

Of course my mind immediately goes to the notion that she (my ex pwBPD) is trying to contact me.

Which is why I post. I have not spoken to her in over 2 weeks, and, being honest and rational, she has ZERO reason to contact me ever again. Not to beat a dead horse, but I live in a huge city, she is beautiful, smart, etc, etc, etc, -- in other words, the likelihood she ran out of potential guys (targets) is slim to none.

But, BUT!, I can't describe the feeling. I was the one that blocked her from contacting me, and at any moment I could unblock her. But I don't. I know the danger, my weakness. So I keep her blocked.

Yet, i get these two calls--which are most likely NOT her--and my brain and body get all anxious. Actually, anxious isn't the best word to use. It was worse than anxious. When I considered the notion that she was trying to contact me in such a way made me... .happy. Not happy that she has to resort to that, but happy that she is trying to contact me. UGH! I worry I have learned nothing.

Again, I can't imagine it was her, despite the oddness, but I am disturbed by my emotions.  

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I have now received two phone calls in the past 12 hours from 'no caller ID'

I don't recall getting many of these calls ever previously. I get the standard telemkt call, but they are not hidden.

Of course my mind immediately goes to the notion that she (my ex pwBPD) is trying to contact me.

Which is why I post. I have not spoken to her in over 2 weeks, and, being honest and rational, she has ZERO reason to contact me ever again. Not to beat a dead horse, but I live in a huge city, she is beautiful, smart, etc, etc, etc, -- in other words, the likelihood she ran out of potential guys (targets) is slim to none.

But, BUT!, I can't describe the feeling. I was the one that blocked her from contacting me, and at any moment I could unblock her. But I don't. I know the danger, my weakness. So I keep her blocked.

Yet, i get these two calls--which are most likely NOT her--and my brain and body get all anxious. Actually, anxious isn't the best word to use. It was worse than anxious. When I considered the notion that she was trying to contact me in such a way made me... .happy. Not happy that she has to resort to that, but happy that she is trying to contact me. UGH! I worry I have learned nothing.

Again, I can't imagine it was her, despite the oddness, but I am disturbed by my emotions.