Her birthday is in 3 days. I don't know why, but I'm feeling anxiety as that day approaches. I will not be reaching out to her to wish her a happy birthday, but I can't stop thinking about what she will be doing with my replacement or if she will be expecting a text from me.
I felt anxiety around her birthday every year for 6 years. The amount of pressure that I felt during each "birthday week" as she called them was immense. Everything had to go right. I don't know if you experienced anything like that but I'm sure I'll have some sort of reaction when we get closer to her birthday.