Wanted to up-date those who have given me support and advice.
DDwBPD came for the 2 day visit. She stayed in a hotel as arranged which she accepted and was fine. Youngest GCn stayed with me which was lovely for me and gave her a bit of a rest.
She came to the house for a meal and whilst she and her Dad said very little directly to each other they were civil.
She told me that she is 15 weeks pregnant with her 4th child (her eldest is six). She hates where they are living and they are in financial difficulties.
I took her for a day out with the children and in the afternoon things started to get tricky.
She asked to stay again for a full week in 2 weeks time. Once again her sister is due to be here one day that week and I haven't had chance to discuss with DH.
I attempted to do a SET.
"I don't like to think of you stuck in xxxplace and unhappy- I want to give you and gc a nice break but whilst you and your sister are not in contact with each other I need to keep my relationship with each of you separate etc"
Cue: "I have made a big mistake getting back in contact with you. Why are you making a big deal of me not respecting her privacy YOU have never respected mine... . accusations of things I never did,
I found myself beginning to justify and argue "No - that did not happen I did not do that" but stopped myself quickly.
I could feel myself getting panicky but I remembered a link jellibeans had sent someone about ragephobia. I realized that I am usually frightened of her but I felt less afraid this time. She stomped off for a bit but didn't rage at me. she was tearful and shouted "don't tell me anything about my sister unless she's dead so I can throw a party" and "I don't know why I bothered the kids don't miss you anyway".
I ignored it and she went quiet.
After a while I said "can I say something to you?"
"Whatever the hell you like" so I validated the valid that it must feel bad to think she couldn't trust her mother and didn't know when I was lying
She just said Yes, I don't trust you. Then the whole thing blew over and she was polite and normal for the rest of the visit.
I don't know if it was the tools working or if its calculated because she wants some practical help.
Its certainly hard work remembering the new way of communicating when feeling stressed, but, you know, I was less scared of her and I thank you all for helping me with that. If she goes NC again I will be upset but not as devastated as before.
Now I just need to negotiate with rest of family re next visit.
Sorry about essay. Thanks for listening