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It can sometimes be difficult when trying to explain this stuff to people because it seems like they assume that he is being manipulative or deliberate. Ex was impulsive.
Lalathegreat,
Everything so far about your story tells me that his actions are not "deliberately" manipulative, but more a result of very intense feelings. (very general explanation)
My explanation for him kneeling is that YOUR ACTIONS were SO SHOCKING to him (the act of walking away) that he "realized" he needed to do something new. His "comfortable" way of controlling his feelings WAS NOT WORKING... .so he changed.
It's about his feelings... .not manipulating you... .although it can appear at first glance to be about manipulating you.
This illustrates a "
LAW"... .think "law of gravity" type of law... .about dealing with pwBPD.
They "listen" and pay attention to your ACTIONS much more than your words.
When you get to a place where you words and actions "match"... .what you communicate will be very powerful.
Big picture: At first hint of him loosing control... .we need to help you have a healthy response.
The story about switching back and forth... ending up with sex and all that. IS NOT HEALTHY for either of you or the r/s.
I do understand... .I've been there... .done the wild back and forth... .MASSIVE make up sex... .
Honestly... .I don't miss it. I used to miss it some... .it's been a while since I've longing for that kind of thing.
What I'm saying is it will be a hard dynamic to break... .but it is possible and YOU will be better off for it... .and him... .and the r/s.
FF