Also, if you have any advice for marital counseling, please let me know. Past experiences taught me it is a platform to accuse me and paint herself as a victim. I get tangled up and deflated simply defending myself.
My advice is to expect more of the same--and if you are "lucky" enough to get a MC who is good enough not to let her run away and blame everything on you, most likely she will refuse to go back because "the MC is ganging up with you against her."
In other words, MC is likely to be a waste of time and money.
Affording a T will be tough. Have to make MC a priority for now, but I definitely need a T.
If she wants to go to MC, go ahead and give it another shot.
If you aren't most of the way there, your money will be far better spent on individual T, either for you or for her... .and you can only decide to go for yourself.