I HATE BPD

[lonleyandlost1]

I hate it. It RUINS everyday of my life. Everyday. I wish it were a person so I could beat t the crap out of it. Its a pointless, stupid, monster of an illness that wants to destroy everything and everyone in its path. It takes, all your joy, happiness, and stability away. It wantw all of you and everything you are. But you are not enough, it wants everything and everyone you love too. The person who you love that suffers from it, it makes sure to take qlmost all of them awBPDay, so that 99% of the time you feel like you are living with a stranger who doesnt care about you or your life together. I know you all feel this way and get it. I just needed to rant. I am off to work after a morning of fighting, all while my 10 +years unemployed husband gets to stay home with my sweet babies. Im sure to return to nothing but complaints about how terrible his day as been. FML, and F BPD

[simplyasiam]

i know the feeling ,huts so bad i lived where your at for years without know the reason for it and thinking ex was just a hity person.

she out of my life again i hate the whole thing , now i know so much about BPD and bipolar but can only use my learing to heel myself

[Scarlet Phoenix]

Hi lonleyandlost1

I looked over your previous posts, and I see a lot of frustration and anger. I'm so sorry, a SO with BPD can be really tough to handle. Many of us, myself included, has been in your shoes. The good news is that you can do something about it. Just being here on the board and posting and reading is a really great start.

Have you seen this yet?

Before You Can Make Things Better, You have To Stop Making Things Worse

And have you thought about working on your validation-skills and boundaries?

You'll find more information if you click on the words "The Lessons" on the right side of the screen

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I know it seems backwards that you must to the work when it's him that has BPD. But remember that you're doing this work for you, so that you can live your life in a more peaceful way.