will this be the end?

[simplyasiam]

six months of back and forth with her... .push/pull we have blocked and unblocked each other many times. ive refused contact for a month she painted me black for a month. wrote her a letter telling her just how i felt and what the r/s had done to me. in the six months ive not chased after her or even messaged her frist she always comes looking for me.

i told her a short list of trems i had for us having contact three weeks ago she met and stuck with the trems but seemed a little back and forth about us being together again.

yesterday i told her its time we make up our minds for sure if we are going to be together or move on from each other. i made sure she knew i wasnt demanding a answer that minute, i wanted her to think it over and be sure. i kind of feel i should have put sometime frame on this but i didnt (mistake?) maybe but ill live with it.

im not sure if this will be the end one way or the other, really dont know what she will do. i do know its not good for me to keep falling into this if its going nowhere.

im going to give her a few days and if shes not answered me or dose answer and is wanting to move on im going to have to let this go and refuse to turn back.

i would be greatful for any input advise or support

[Surnia]

Hi simplyasiam

being in push-pull and undecided its a very tough place. 

I think one of the key phrase is this one:

i do know its not good for me to keep falling into this if its going nowhere.

Yes, its not good for you. Perhaps it is time to see the dynamic in your rs and how she is. Perhaps rewrite your sentence without the little powerful word "if".