38 days of NC - trying to get my mojo back

[hopealways]

38 days ago I decided to finally stand up to her, tell her what was on my mind, she didn't like what she heard, she dished it out for over a year but couldn't take 10 minutes of it. I asked her to leave. Radio Silence since then.

We are all in the same boat, trust me I feel the pain daily but I try to stay positive.  What I miss the most is my Mojo.  Just this week I feel like it is slowly coming back.  People look at me with more of a twinkle in their eyes, girls do a double take again, I am starting to get my confidence slightly back.  Of course it gets better, I just need patience. We all do. 

Damn this BPD stuff, it really sucks.  I thought I was invincible when it came to women.  But I tell myself it is not the woman who did this, it is the disorder + my lack of love as a child that fell for the manipulations.

My friends, we can think about all the good times, all the memories, but life goes on.  To my female friends on this board: a real gentleman should treat you well like a lady deserves to be treated. You did not deserve this treatment by him-be glad that he is out of your life.  And to my male friends on this board: we are men and stronger and better than this disorder: let's gather our strengths and move forward.

[Ironmanrises]

Hope... .

The fact that... .

You asked her to leave... .

Considering what you experienced... .

Took bravery.

I commend you for that.

You will get your mojo back.

Your self reflection... .

And detection... .

Of the lack of self love... .

Is important.

Now you know... .

And are aware... .

Of what needs to be repaired.

Keep posting on here my friend.

You are very positive.

And that helps all of us.

Keep healing.

And stay in radio silence.

[Lucky Jim]

Like what you posted, hopealways.  Be grateful that your detour into a BPD r/s was thankfully brief relative to some of us (like me) who were mired in BPD marriages and relationships for extended periods (16 yrs. in my case).  I admire your resolve and understanding of the disorder.  That you can see a reason why you were drawn to a BPD r/s is also a positive.  I'm back on my path these days and am confident that you will get your Mojo back, too.  Lucky Jim

[hopealways]

Thank you Ironmanfalls and Lucky Jim. Yes it took courage-it was hard to say those words to her, sometimes I regret it but it happened for a reason. If I had parted on friendly terms I could not have healed as well or as quickly.

[Ironmanrises]

Thank you Ironmanfalls and Lucky Jim. Yes it took courage-it was hard to say those words to her, sometimes I regret it but it happened for a reason. If I had parted on friendly terms I could not have healed as well or as quickly.

Welcome.

A lesson in itself.