Hi Madeline Blue,
I am so sorry to hear that things are difficult for you right now
It is great to see you reaching out for help and support - a very brave and scary thing to do.
This particular site is a support group for those who are or were in a relationship with a person with BPD. Do you feel you may have BPD? If so, many of the posts can be triggering.
There are good resources for BPD sufferers if that is what you're seeking:
Resources for BPD Sufferers.

LnL