Torn (introduction)

[marshall_brown]

Hi there. I am in a rough spot right now - I feel like I had my eyes opened to patterns of abuse that have been going on in our relationship since it began. I've always felt something wasn't right, but this weekend really solidified my feelings.

Complicating matters is the fact that we have a 6 month old son. I am worried about ensuring he is properly cared for, and concerned about the impact our explosions will have on him, and also concerned that if the explosions aren't directed at me they will be directed at him.

I am staying in a hotel, and have been for 4 of the past 5 nights. It is very lonely.

My therapist recommended I look into SWOE, so I picked up the SWOE workbook from the library tonight. It encouraged readers to join a forum. I hope that the workbook, and my interactions with the other members here, will offer some guidance.

[BeagleGirl]

I'm sorry you are going through this. It may help to share more details about what has been going on and what opened your eyes.

I understand and applaud the desire to protect your child. I have come to appreciate the advice many friends, and my therapist, have had to give over and over to not rush any decisions. It may take a while to regain a clear head, even with the physical separation.

Best wishes.

[Lucky Jim]

Hey marshall, Welcome!  You have come to a great place to share your experiences with a person suffering from BPD.  What makes you think your SO has BPD?  Fill us in, when you can.  Believe me, you are not alone; in fact, I spent many a night at the local motel while married to my BPDxW, so I can relate to your situation.  I have been in your shoes, and it is rough and lonely!  You have taken an important first step by joining this forum.

LuckyJim