Left with no clear explanation

[savreina]

This is my first time on here. I’ll try to keep things short as possible. Everything all started back in June of 2017, I was online dating and this girl slid in my dms . Just from the first few messages I thought she’d be a great aspect to my life. She could hold a conversation better than anyone, especially men I’ve come across. We seemed to have everything in common, I guess is what is referred to as mirroring (excuse the terminology, I just started doing research) anyways, everything was perfect, she was very clingy and attentive which is what I loved about her, but I was kinda skeptical because within the first two weeks of Knowing me she referred to me as her gf(red flag) but I didn’t take it too seriously. She told me about how her life was very stressful and how I brought her soo much happiness & how all of her exes were crazy and how she hated them blah blah, never really payed to much attention to that. & she also lives 3 hours away & she came to visit July 4th, we vibed like crazy, I was head over heels by this point. But as soon as she left everything from that day when downhill... .maybe she wasn’t as attracted to me? Idk but one day she did a complete 180 on me & cussed me out & blocked my number but claimed that she didn’t. Anyways fast forward all she did from that day on was distance herself, she would go a day or two without speaking to me but watched everything I posted on Snapchat. Social media is a b****. I could tell she didn’t care anymore and that her attention was elsewhere, & my intuition was right. We eventually stopped talking and about a month after that I look on fb & see that she has a boyfriend but she always told me that she didn’t know what she was as far as her sexuality. Anyways we didn’t talk for about a month and a half because the last time we did (end of August) we got into a big argument and got one of her friends involved & by the time I was fed up with her crap. I always knew she wasn’t right in the head because she had soo many mood swings, I thought it was just because she was a cancer. Anyways she reached back out to me in October & from that day on we talked almost everyday., even tho she still had a boyfriend. But I was trying to be her friend & she swears I couldn’t handle that when she was the one asking me to send her nudes and telling me she still had feelings for me. Her and her rebound eventually Broke up and her attention was on me for the most part. She would always pressure me into s*xting, which I enjoyed sometimes but it was non stop on her part. We eventually started saying I love you( me more so than her) and I really believed that she loved me until I found out that she was still talking to her ex apparently she’s still friends with a lot of her exes  & I flipped and I tried to leave her & she told me how much she was over my sh** blah, so I left and then next day she blew up my phone talking soo much sh** & I was like okay this girl really does care about me so I took her back just for her to end up leaving me 2 weeks later on New Year’s Eve. Left me & blocked my number. I haven’t had any closure or any explanation. She always tells me how I think that I’m so perfect & that no one can get tired of my sh**, when I haven’t done anything to her. It’s almost as if she left me because I tried to leave her. Like some sick game of revenge. She texted me last week (January 18,2018) and we argued and she blocked my number again. Idk what any of her actions mean? Like why always block me when your upset? Not to mention she told me she found a new “friend” so I guess she’s moved on in less than a month . I feel crazy for still wanna to talk about some things with her, because I didn’t deserve any of this, not the first time and damn sure not this time

[blackmirror]

It has been three years and I still have so many questions.  I am sorry you are going through this it is frustrating.  You mention mirroring.  She told you you think no one can get sick of you.  Is that true or is she projecting?  You don't deserve to be treated badly and that might be one reason why she is treating you that way.  To show you you are allowing her to treat you that way.  Why would you want to carry on with someone who continually treats you badly?  Is it so you can find out why she is doing it?  The reasons why have very little to do with you.  You deserve betted.  You know it.  Do not allow her to take up residence in your soul as you seek answers from her.  Learn from it.  If you want her in your life have more of the conversation types you had at the beginning.  Focus on the positive.  See other people and do not look at her social media or let her other relationships bother you.  Accept the relationship for what it is and decide for yourself what you can accept and what your boundaries are.  You deserve to have someone who treats you with kindness and respect.  Who won't make you think you are no longer attractive to her.  She is free to do as she pleases and so are you. 

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we got into a big argument and got one of her friends involved & by the time I was fed up with her crap.

What did you fight about?