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I am just at the beginning of this long and painful journey and have recently left my partner of 4.5 years who I believe has BPD/NPD (he exhibits every characteristic for both disorders). His unpredictable drunken outbursts began to escalate and I could no longer take the emotional abuse as we have a beautiful 16 month old and I couldn’t bare to have her exposed to such toxicity. He struggles with addiction issues (sex, porn, drugs (weed/cocaine), gambling) and he isn’t willing to seek help and/ or go medication because he said that it didn’t help in the past (he’s divorced). I’m so lost and broken and need guidance on how to pick myself up and move past this/him. I love him and love our family, but know I deserve more and so does our daughter.  Any help or guidance would be greatly appreciated!

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I am just at the beginning of this long and painful journey and have recently left my partner of 4.5 years who I believe has BPD/NPD (he exhibits every characteristic for both disorders). His unpredictable drunken outbursts began to escalate and I could no longer take the emotional abuse as we have a beautiful 16 month old and I couldn’t bare to have her exposed to such toxicity. He struggles with addiction issues (sex, porn, drugs (weed/cocaine), gambling) and he isn’t willing to seek help and/ or go medication because he said that it didn’t help in the past (he’s divorced). I’m so lost and broken and need guidance on how to pick myself up and move past this/him. I love him and love our family, but know I deserve more and so does our daughter.  Any help or guidance would be greatly appreciated!

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Welcome Search4help! It sounds like you've been through a lot in the last several years. It sounds like you're making the right decision to protect yourself and your daughter. I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this and glad you found this site.
Can you share more about what you feel that you need help with and guidance on the most? Share when you feel comfortable. There are many people here that have or are currently experiencing many of the same things as you.