Couldn't take it anymore

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I lost it tonight. He was so mean all day and said he was mad at me and couldn't stop saying horrible things to me. He  accused me for the millionth time of ruining his life and blaming me of electronic harassment to myself. He keeps doing this. I finally had proof and I dug it out and handed it to him to show it wasn't me but he took it and started ripping it and he called me a freak. I shoved him so hard I knocked him over. We have an 11 month old son who was in the room. I scooped him up and left. He said he was calling the police. I was so scared. I drove. A few blocks down and waited. They never showed.  I called the house and he called me every name in the book and demanded I return to be arrested and to give my son to him. I wouldn't go. I went home but he just continued telling me I was an abuser and I was lucky I didn't get arrested and that I had a free pass this time. It all continued for hours and I said I was sorry. He was receptive to being BPD and then shut me down. Says he is leaving tomorrow by the end of conversation . I feel so low.4