I ave been a month and so on this site I can say now I finally see the light

[guy4caligirl]

Yes I do , thanks to all of you what I have shared with you , I like to say I am not in the fog anymore I was blind and now I can see .

It was an awful relationship for 5 years , B/u 4 months .

I look at those years with one eye and close the other .

My recovery rest in the good times of that so called R/S with my EXGFBPD.

I think if it was that bad and IT was that bad , yes but I still stayed in anyways,  to say I wasn't entertained all the time Yes I was : Dramas good time good sex ups and down but I became numbed I was like taking antibiotic against her rages I often went to sleep after a big fight , like nothing ever happened where she stayed up all night doing her BPD stuff folding cloths brushing her hair surrounded by multiple mirrors .

But I liked being with her  

it's just constant distraction but got annoyed when busy at work self employed thank god for that at that time .

This how I remember her in this manner so I can get over and heal

 I use to take her food shopping and I walk around the store ,then surprise ! there is one cart full to the top with stuff  I can't even see her pushing it   stuff for her to eat and make up and the whole nine yard and for me  a kikkat wow (She did not work ).

She gets to the register and have only 50 dollar budget to spend oops total tendered $ 189 so the cashier has to refund the grocery till she reach the $50 mark , and that happened so often in clothing stores they got to know her it was very embarrassing yes , now to me this was her BPD in action . but relationship she knew exactly what she is doing .

It made me also realize  that they knew they were mentally ill from the get go , when we first met them , they played with their famous honey moon hooked us tight , made sure we got addicted, manipulated us "that little girl wants to be rescued and feel so good with you are her protector and she is a victim of abuse ( Made me think about this Have you notice that they can smell the goodness in us hence they won't get close to a bad guy maybe just for 5 minutes sex ) Then they show how ill they are .

Now does that fall under FRAUD yes , they stole our privacy sneaked in and sucked our emotion till we ran out and then what ... .They dropped us like nothing was ever there .

I assure you conscience or not they know exactly what they do , you don't think by now after so many brake ups Replacement after replacement ... .now do you think that they didn't figure out they have a problem ? Of course they do but they cover that up by switching the blame on us so they go on fresh to the next saying they were a victim of abuse with their ex and give a hint to the new guy recue me please (do you remember you were there once )

And the cycle continues ruining more people's life