Today as a result of going to the employment center and dealing with several triggers after my daughter pushed my boundaries last night and I got a phone call from my brother last night that triggered me, I'm at a 61.
It sounds like you were quite triggered as you mention yourself which seems to be reflected in the dramatic increase in your CEN score. Your score went from 27 to 61 which is a huge leap. I suspect this current high score is more a reflection of your triggered state and how you view things when in such a state than of your actual CEN score. This seems to be quite different from when you're in a more calm state of mind. Would you agree with this assessment?
When we're in a triggered state of mind, it's often way harder to think rationally and we're way more susceptible to distorted thinking patterns of our own. As a result of this I suspect your high score of 61 might give a too extreme representation of your CEN score. When you first did the test and got a 27, it sounds like you were much calmer and way less triggered based on the post you made then. Would you agree?
It's probably best to do the test when you're feeling relatively calm and aren't triggered, so you can answer the questions from a more objective perspective which isn't too strongly influenced by any extreme or sudden events in your life.
I'd say all of this also once again highlights the importance of mindfulness, identifying your triggers and practicing alternative responses and solutions ahead of time. These things can make it easier for you to deal with triggers, help you avoid triggering situations and help you stay more calm when in a triggering situation.
