My goodbye letter

[ja.pani.ka]

Ok, so my T. asked me to write a farewell letter to my ex. (not to send it to him, just to let my feelings out). Here it is, maybe it will help somebody else, too. With love.


Hey Boy,

A year ago you stole my heart.

You caressed it so much, and then you wounded it – even more.

Slowly I am getting my heart back. A lot of things still bring the pain. I still cry, sometimes, passing by the places where I was so happy with you, when I sit in the car, when I happen to see a photo or something you gave me. Sometimes I do get angry, at my fate, at you, at myself. I do miss your smile, your touch, your jokes, your tenderness, your care. I feel relief that you can not hurt me anymore. As it was always with you – so many opposite emotions.

You wanted to write down what you are grateful for every day. But you couldn't. I can. I wish to thank you. For the good part, as it reminded me how beautiful, tender and full of love I can be. For the bad part, as it showed me how strong I am. I feel as if life brought you so that I could look closely at myself. So I could understand what it is that I really want: sensitivity, mindfulness, openness to emotions, maybe even a bit of folly. And what I certainly do not want: somebody limiting me, yet constantly breaking my borders. Me solving somebody else's problems.

I am grateful for that beautiful and difficult year. I'm grateful for every single day.

[ShakinMyHead]

Bravo Ja.pani.ka! Just beautiful! SMH

[WoundedBibi]

Nerve touched  :'(

Thank you ja.pani.ka

[jessedsickabouther]

Very nice letter.  ! Very sweet! !

[iamexhausted]

That was really beautiful and encompasses so many of the feelings I have towards my exSO.

[ja.pani.ka]

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me to see you have similar thoughts and feelings.

[steelwork]

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me to see you have similar thoughts and feelings.

Wonderful letter, and so concise. Which shows that you are doing great at not looking for answer from the guy.

[Eyeamme]

What a beautiful letter.

[Feelinstronger]

Your letter is wonderful.  I think many of us have so very many beautiful memories mixed in with the heartbreak, and your letter is a great expression of that.

[Penelope35]

I identify so much with these words of yours that it made me cry. So well written.