Is this real?

[Breesabrat]

 My husband has noticed traits i have shown to be that of BPD. He was trying to come up with reasons why my outburst and behaviors get so severe. He was trying to find an excuse to my toxic traits and to see how i can be so detached.he likes to throw my childhood in my face(sexual abuse).So when this fell into the category of BPD he paid full attention.At first he thought narcissist but i am full accepting and aware of my conditions. I am just not always able to run away from the repetitive actions or fights we keep falling into. At times i wonder if im being "gas lighted" or if this is my naked reality now.I hope this brings answers.

Our objective is to better understand the struggles our child faces and to learn the skills to improve our relationship and provide a supportive environment and also improve on our own emotional responses, attitudes and effectiveness as a family leaders

[Swimmy55]

It is great to see you reaching out for help and support !
This site is a support group for those who have child/ step child/ adult children  with BPD, so many of the posts can be triggering to a BPD sufferer. There are resources of the type you're seeking. Please check out
 https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html

Best wishes to you on your journey.