Sounds awful and very familiar. You are doing the right thing. It's easier said than done but for me mindfulness mediation helps so much. and also talking to my sister. Good luck and stay strong!
Thank you so much, mrlala. I am meditating every night, and it does help. I have to work on my morning routine since I usually wake up sad. But I've been very productive this week, talking to lawyers and advocates, gathering information, dividing the cell phone accounts. I'm also leaning heavily on my friends and sister. They are my "SQUAD."
Be patient with your tears, you will feel better afterwards.
Yes, please stand firm in your resolution. It was my pattern of jumping from relationship to relationship that got me into one with a pwBPD. I am happy for what we had but am girding my loins with sackcloth and ashes. Nobody is having any fun around here until I've resolved my patterns
Yes, khibomsis, I agree I will not be having any fun until I've resolved my patterns! I am so sick of feeling this way! The highs and lows are not worth it - I want a calm, steady life. I have friends who love and accept me for who I am. I am trying to be patient with my tears. I am so grateful for all your support!
