Also I find it so unfair that I'm going through all this heartbreak and sorrow, Ye she is from what I last heard from her, happy and in love.
You know whats unfair? You not allowing yourself to detach from her by thinking she is happy and in love.
Please read that part of the loving phase again please.
https://bpdfamily.com/content/how-borderline-relationship-evolvesShe has immature emotions and a complete malfunctioning in regards of emotions. Every BPD relationship in the clinging phase will tell you, HAPPY and IN LOVE.
Come on man, if this board told us ONE thing, is that
that is a load of a baloney and not the truth... and doomed to fail one day.