I get so confused

[SoftLanding]

I come here to post and I start writing and everything is so screwed up.  I don't understand what's happening in my life and I am getting to the point where I can't even explain it and understand it myself.  I don't know how many times I've tried to make a post and then just deleted it.  My man is uBPD.  I can't communicate my simplest needs to him without him going off on a tangent.  He says I'm crazy and I don't make sense and I'm just trying to make him snap and blow his head off.  I know I'm not doing these things.  I'm just trying to communicate and have a better relationship.  The harder I try the more it seems out of reach.  So sad.  I don't know how it can continue this way.  We did really good for a few months because I was following the lessons. Then I got tired of everything being all about him and I just wanted some good attention from him.  I don't think he's capable and I don't think I'm capable of continuing with the way things are.

[SoftLanding]

We're through.  I guess I saw that coming.  I'm off to the Leaving boards and hopefully I can construct a legible post.

[Surnia]

Just write down what comes out first. We can read a lot here 

Being confused or feeling screwed is okay here.