May need help tonight...

[flynavy]

I am in a real funk tonight... . miss my wife something terrible... . still comes out of nowhere (not my ex BPD/NPD).  I can feel those dumb cravings for a warm body next to mine tonight... . I know she would come over if i texted... . she was very good at taking away my pain... . even if for a short time!

[heyhey]

Im a little confused. Youre missing your ex wife who has BPD/NPD?

[Octoberfest]

I am in a real funk tonight... . miss my wife something terrible... . still comes out of nowhere (not my ex BPD/NPD).  I can feel those dumb cravings for a warm body next to mine tonight... . I know she would come over if i texted... . she was very good at taking away my pain... . even if for a short time!

I hesitate to give you any advice on what to do flynavy... . I have not shared the same experiences you have and I feel it would be ignorant for me to try and offer guidance in reference to your wife.

In terms of your BPDex, remember why things went south in the first place.  Remember what accompanied all of those good feelings that she gave you; the ones that made you leave her,

Stay strong.

Im a little confused. Youre missing your ex wife who has BPD/NPD?

As I understand from reading prior posts, flynavy's wife passed on.  The BPDex followed afterwards.

[mango_flower]

At least you can see that you were using the BPD ex as a crutch... . a short term fix.

I can't begin to understand what you've been through.  Emotionally it must be so tough but I can ee that logically and academically you've worked a lot of it out.

Look after yourself xxx

[fakename]

sorry to hear about what youre going through... .

i cant really provide any advice - not knowing who you are or your situation... .

but i would tell myself, a seeking my exBPD as a temporary distraction would just divert me from finding the peace of mind i'm in search of, and isntead just cause a series of other issues... .

i dont know if that applies to you.

whenever someone close to me passed away, i would just remind myself of the good that they stood for and try to apply that to my life... .

hope you arent too hard on yourself tonight

[flynavy]

Thanks all... . I guess it does get better... . I posted on facebook some pictures of my wife form a time and place that was beautiful for us... . the flurry of support form friends and family was amazing.

I know it was wrong... . but it goes to show how insidious this disorder and our involvement with them really is.

It feels good to know there is a place like this to vent... . it does help to talk with others in the same boat... . even if it is cyber/digital... .

I remembered what clearmind said to me last night... . my wife would be proud of me!... . I will never betray that trust and love again!

Miss you Baby... . Love Never Dies!