A tragic end to a beautiful life

[MammaMia]

Crazyworld, Reality, and everyone else on the Board who has lost a loved one to BPD -

Your posts are heartbreaking.  There but for the grace of God goes every one of us.

I often feel pwBPD are on loan to us from God.  It makes me very angry that we have so few options with this disorder.  We are sucked up into a tornado of destruction and despair... . and there is nothing we can do to stop it.  BPD is the cruelest of mental illnesses.  It destroys everyone and everything in its path.

We do the best we can with the situation we have.  I personally pray and pray and pray for my son's safety.  It is horrible to live in fear all the time.  I have tried to prepare myself for the future with him and how he may be abruptly taken from me.  It sickens me but there is nothing I can do but accept the reality of this disorder.

Dear Lord, please help us all to survive.  Heal our hearts, our minds, and grant us peace.  But most of all, please give our loved ones the strength to battle BPD every single day and keep them safe. 

Our objective is to better understand the struggles our child faces and to learn the skills to improve our relationship and provide a supportive environment and also improve on our own emotional responses, attitudes and effectiveness as a family leaders

[griz]

Crazyworld:  Your words to your grandson were so touching and the fact that he got it doesn't surprise me.  I always feel like children truly understand. They have no preconceived notions, no judgements, they see things for what they are and he was probably right... . Mommy did love them too much.  In all the heartbreak for these boys, what a wonderful memory to have.

My DD's issues began right after she learned that I had had thyroid cancer before she was born.  I believe that was the trigger for her also.  Her fear of losing me.  She also told me one time that her biggest fear was something happening to me that she "knew" she couldn't go on if that ever happened.

What a fearful way to live.  I am glad you felt your daughters presence and I believe that she is in a better place.

Griz