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[Tinkerwings]

Greetings      I stopped contact with my mother three years ago.  I am trying to rebuild and recover.  My therapist set me on the path of BPD and I am grateful to learn that this issue has a name and that others are willing and able to help me understand and grow.   Deciding to protect myself, and choosing to believe that I deserve to be protected is liberating.  For the most part, I feel worthless but I am fighting hard to overcome this emotion. 

I am fifty-one, my Dad is eighty-one, I have a brother and two sisters.  I am the first/only one to stop trying to 'handle' the situation.

Each member of the family has moved to the farthest edges of the United States, in part to get as far from her as possible.

In my opinion, they are civil in order to be able to have contact with my father.  My Dad is afraid to let her know he is in contact with me.  He does call, but it is only when he knows she will be out of the house.

I hope to learn and grow from interacting with this site.

(I am practicing using the word "I."   I am sorry if it came across as annoying).

~Tinkerwings

[Turkish]

Hi Tinkerwings,

I didn't notice the use of the word "I" until you mentioned it (and no, it still isn't annoying 

I think your awareness of that says a lot without saying it. It sounds like your mother makes things all about her, perhaps at the expense of her children's identities. Does that feel familiar? You're in good company here, and I hope we hear more how best we can support you Tinkerwings.



Turkish