Is this normal?

[Depression = 72% of members]

I am having a hard time finding enjoyment in anything such as food,people,activities,holidays?

Everything is a reminder right now.I feel so blah.

I find it really hard to not get annoyed with loved ones who say to just move on or that they understand.

[sadandbroken]

I am having a hard time finding enjoyment in anything such as food,people,activities,holidays?

Everything is a reminder right now.I feel so blah.

I find it really hard to not get annoyed with loved ones who say to just move on or that they understand.

[Joem678]

What is your story?

[sadandbroken]

Long story so i will give the short version.I dating a high functioning BPD male for exactly a few days shy of a year. I had no idea about his disorder and until the break up had no idea what BPD was.I had never been with someone who treated me so special.We never fought or argued one time in the year.He was very supportive and attempted to help me when I would allow. I'm a very independent person so most of the time it would be presented as a surprise.He continued to contact me daily but it started feeling like he was a little depressed and distant.He met up with me one Saturday and had what looked like hickey on his neck.He told me he didn't know what it was from.After he left I sent him a message that I hurt.he told me that he had drank a lot of tequila the night before and could not remember what had happened.That he had broke a lot of things and that he was alone.I asked if he drank like that often.He said sometimes and that he has been stressed.In a year I had never seen him drunk or angry so i was completely in shock.I told him that I needed space and that I didn't know if I could still see him.Following that we spoke several days later and he kept referring to his other side that he never wanted me to see.That I was to good for him and that he had a therapist that he was going to contact whom he hadn't seen in a year and a half.He said that he wished that everything wasn't black and white and that he cried a lot when it was just him. After the phone call I started trying to figure things out.I confronted him 2 days later asking him if he had BPD. He admitted it. I told him how he made me feel so used and asked why me. He kept saying I deserved so much better and that he never felt he deserved me. We havn't spoke since but have had to briefly see each other in the last 6 weeks at a function that we both have a son involved in.I found out about a week after we stopped talking that he had already replaced me with another female who has a son also in the function that we attend.Its very hard to have to process this.It feels almost like a dream at times.