FOG at work

[FURDA]

WOW, it just clicked in my brains how I behave at my job. At all jobs, actually.  I can describe myself as a hard worker with high work ethic. Most of the time I work harder and better than others on most demanding tasks.  I am always assessed with the highest grades by my superiors but still I am in constant panic, fear and worry that something will go terribly wrong.  Beside that I do not like my bosses.  I simply can not stand superiors or authority of any kind. No matter who they are and what they are.   I like to work with people, I enjoy team work - but I just can not stand to receive any order. How do I cope with the superiors? Well I usually predict what I will be required to do and do it all before I am asked.  So I cope with them just fine. But I am not young anymore. I am soo tired of my job. I just want to do something really stupid for a change.  I want to be a cabbage head. I want to go to the seaside and rest from all  earthly problems. I want to be maintained as a queen.  It never occurred to me until now that I am recycling the same attitude that I have had toward my father.  And I thought that I have escaped and freed myself!