They say if you cant forgive you cant move on.

[BXRICAN]

  I CANT BELIEVE I FOUND THIS SITE NOW, I NEEDED THIS SUPPORT FORSO LONG. I NEEDED SOMEONE TO TELL ME,NO OU ARENT CRAZY. YES HE IS EVIL. YES HE IS TRYING TO SUCK YOUR SOUL. AND NO I DONT DESERVE WHAT HE DID TO ME. THANK THE GOOD LORD. I AM AN EMOTIONALLY STRONG WOMAN, AND HAVE DEEPFAITH. IF NOT, I WOULD HAVE LET THIS EMOTIONAL VAMPIRE SUCK MY SOUL. BUT AS MUCH BLAME AS HE TRIED TO THROW MY WAY. I ALWAYS M KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG. TO TO DELIVER MYSELF FROM THIS BEING WASN'T EASY. PTSD IS PART OF MY LIFE NOW. I'M ON MEDICATION FOR ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION. I STILL DESPISE HIM. BUT VERY HAPPY HE IS OUT OF MY LIFE. NOW I HAVE TO CO PARENT WITH HIM. THIS SUCKS. I WANT TO GET AS FAR AWAY AS POSSIBLE

[gotbushels]

Hi BXRICAN 

You're right, you can find support here if you're the SO of a relationship with a pwBPD.

It seems like your going through a difficult time. That's a lot of caps.   

I do agree, it may seem to the SO like they're crazy from time to time. There are valid reason why these relationships can make us feel this way. This is more true when we are heavily involved in the relationship and don't find appropriate resources. This site is an excellent resource.

Yes, I too have thought that my ex was evil. Sometimes I entertain that thought. Yes, I have actually though of my ex being some kind of soul-sucking entity. Not dissimilar to a vampire.

You're right, we often don't deserve what they have done to us.

I was so happy my ex was out of my life. On the bright side, know that it seems that pwBPDs are capable of "clear" breakups in some situations. So you may have this peace to look forward to.

I'd like to help you. I encourage you to find time to yourself and take care of yourself during this time. It helped me a lot to find things like this. This can be especially helpful when you find you want space or to get as far away from something as possible.

I hope to hear more of how this story goes for you BXRICAN.