Hello and welcome
You're in very good company here as we've all been through the same experiences, some with a mercifully short BPD relationship, some like myself with a few years and some who spent a lifetime with their partner.
When I first read about BPD I too was amazed how accurately it described my situation and just how script-like the illness is; it's very predictable for the most part once you've experienced it for a while. It was also good to realise that I wasn't the villain - as we can be made to feel by our partner's actions - and that BPD's can be skilled manipulators who can turn every innocent and kind thing we do against us, making themselves the 'victim'.
Though our BPD partner can exert quite a hold on us and make it very difficult to end things, once we've seen the futility of continuing the relationship then things atart to improve, though very slowly.
There is life out there - you had a life before you met your BPD partner and you'll have a life again. This time you'll hopefully be experienced enough to see the red flags in future - and avoid any repetition.
You'll also have read that many ex-BPD partners try to re-engage after a while, either due to not wanting to be alone or just to know that you're still there and possibly still interested, so if you're definitely decided on the break it's important to stay strong and not be drawn back onto the roundabout again, which is all too easy to do.
I'll quote again the 'Three C's' which you may have already seen in posts; you didn't
Cause it, you can't
Cure it and you can't
Control it. If you did your best then you could have done no more.
Write more if you want to or just plain rant to get things off your chest - that's what the site is for and we're all here to support each other.
Best wishes.
