My Little BP – Sometimes I cry for you.

[Jamex]

My Little BP – Sometimes I cry for you.

After 9 years My Little BP lady was still vilifying me no matter what I did for her. I discovered BP 4 or 5 years of pain and suffering into the relationship.

After that I gave her lots or forbearance. I could now see she was suffering, she had 10 jobs in 9 years and made 2 false police accusations against me. She was always in denial. We lived apart.

I tried so hard. Her vilification and vitriol towards me consumed her, it became too much, noting was out of bounds for her. The more forbearance I extended the more venomous became her vitriol. I am strong but was weakening with each bite, soon I too would fall. I just could not reach her.

As if by an invisible force my self-preservation took over. I released my hand and my Little BP slipped away. She hated me for everything including letting her go.

Sometimes I cry for her. What will become of her, she may meet a bad person who will treat her with violence as she is very provocative when her personality flips. But she can be loving too. I am sorry for you my Little BP, I had to let go of your hand my love, for I too was facing terminal declivity had I have held you longer.

A note to the Non-BP

A BP who will not admit to being borderline and seek help becomes a danger to people close to them. It is a progressive and pernicious danger. You must decide when to stop giving and protect yourself. If your BP is in denial you must let go, if they are not and admit to treatment there is hope.

My life is so good now, but sometimes I still cry for my little lost BP, a part of my heart will always love her and I will always carry a little of her pain.

J

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[Lost-love-mind]

Never knew anything about BPD until my ex GF just found something I did in a momentary lapse of selfishness, and broke it off and went NC.
My numerous attempt to talk and apologize went unsatisfied.
My 4th email apology after 8 weeks were met with vile insults that I would never expect from a 45 yr old woman.
Your post is perfect and applies for my exBPD.
Particularly I feel bad that if she met another abusive malignant narcissistic male like her ex-husband who both verbally and I believe physically abused her.

[Tattered Heart]

Hi Jamex,

Sorry that you are still feeling so much hurt. How long has it been since you broke up? Are you trying to get back together again?