And if some semblance of a relationship is to come down the road...I think it will indeed take years, not six months of counseling.
The "need to know where I am at with mom" that comes from my brother just feels like a manipulation.
He is trying to "care about me," in order to ultimately attack me for putting myself first.
Hi, Imatter33! Thanks for sharing your story. It's not selfish at all. Your focus now should be on your family of choice and your new little one. A healthy mom and brother would appreciate that and support you. I'm sorry you don't have their full support. I'm sure you could use it right now.
Just want to validate that I've encountered the same type of pressure you're getting from your brother. After a difficult encounter with my BPD MIL, my husband and MIL demanded that I "decide what I was going to do." This was such an odd request to me. I had already appropriately shared how my feelings were hurt. I needed time to process it, I wasnt sure what I was supposed to be deciding. I resented the pressure and felt somehow that the responsibility was becoming mine?
I was asked repeatedly
when i would decide. Decide what? Why was there a deadline?
I was then told that i was to call her, or she would never visit. This made me LOL inside. Outside, I simply stated to my husband that I didn't appreciate threatening statements.
Then they got upset because I didn't call within a timeframe that was never communicated to me. It was so strange. I simply asked my husband why there was a deadline to begin with.
Meanwhile, my heart races at each threat. I'm scared, I battle feeling disoriented, and I'm hurting. But I'm also learning and getting better at really SEEING what's going on. Healing happens at your pace. Expect pressure, but know that there isnt any need to acquiesce to other's deadlines or demands. What you're doing is not selfish. It is needed and normal and healthy. It might take years. There's no way to predict how long it might take. And that is ok.
You're doing such a great job! Your husband and kiddo need you. Keep up the counseling. Keep talking to us, we're all working hard to strengthen our boundary setting and reconcile our inner voices with what we say aloud. We can do this.
pj