Happy Wednesday! I have been having one of those "I'm a terrible person and should be ashamed of even thinking about being happy and healthy" days, and I decided that enough is enough. I want to take some time to celebrate some positives, because life really is beautiful.
1. My T said this week that I am very strong, and I am well on my way to healing and growth.
2. Last night, my H very sincerely told me that he is amazed at how much I have grown and healed in just a few months and he is amazed at the strength I have shown.
3. I was offered a new job yesterday!
4. I joined a community orchestra recently and am remembering how much peace I find in music and a music community.
5. This site. I have been struck the last few days by how incredible this community is. Since junior high, I have been struggling with getting people in my life to understand what I struggle with, and people are really good at nodding and offering cute advice. It can be so discouraging after years of thinking that there is something deeply and inherently wrong, and no one can or will see things from my eyes. However, reading post after post on this site has reaffirmed to me that not only am I accepted, but I am understood and valued. That has been a blessing in a rather dark time in my life, and I think that it is a huge positive to celebrate. On one hand, it is crushing that there are so many people who share similar pain and struggles. I never knew. But then I realize that there is strength in numbers. We're a strong bunch!
