Ccswim, it’s good that you are thinking very carefully about bringing children into the world, particularly with your husband’s lack of empathy. So many members here have spoken about loving their children, but regretting creating such a longlasting bond with their BPD spouses.
This is a good point. I love my 8 year old son to death but the reality is, whether my wife and I are still married or not, I'm stuck in some form of relationship with her until our son turns 18...and most likely beyond that even if I have no legal obligation to be a part of her life past then.
I originally wanted to have two or possibly even three kids when my wife and I got married. The person I am now can't even fathom the possibility of fathering another child with her. She really wanted another child for a long time and pushed the issue with me frequently. She doesn't bring it up anymore. As much as I didn't want my son to be an only child, I knew that it would be completely reckless and irresponsible of me to bring another kid into our toxic dynamic.